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It's the important day in my life
It's the day my dad proudly say iqamah to my ears
It's the day that I came to this world screaming my heart out
It's the day Allah allowed me for the first time to breath His air
It's the day I was born

But... it's okay

Because since that day I have grown so much
Because since that day Allah has bestow upon me lots of love
Because since that day He has given me so many blessings
Because since that day I have learnt that I am only in transit on this world
Because since that day I know that I have a mission to complete
Because since that day I have matured gradually
Because since that day I realized that real love is only for You
Because since that day I can't force people to love me but I will pray that He does

However...

I am only human, I crave for love
I am an unimportant individual, I look for recognition
I am part of a family, I thirst for appreciation
I am my own person, I wish to be accepted as I am
I am strong willed, I hope to be tamed
I am also weak inside, I silently cry for attention
I am doing my best to be a perfect wife, a filial daughter, an obedient servant of Allah
I am who I am

Whatever I do...

the others will come first
he will be the priority
my own satisfaction depends on the situation

Looks like my expectation is too much
I'm praying for appreciation that was none
no one seems to care
but alhamdulillah he remembers, that's what's important
that makes life meaningful
that makes my day.

Turn to Allah...
... you are the only one for me
Don't leave me alone
Only You remember me... that's my belief.
Thank you for giving me another day and a new year
I will always love You the best I could.

spontaneously by: 
lone ranger, 10 April 2010
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